The Sad State of Paddy

Broke into her usual nightmares

Erasing the side person presence from within

Regretting the memories of the past

Angels of the night is her name

Sobs her unheard sorry and pleas.

Fondness for Rain

 I'd rather be washed by the rain

Than be drowned by the river

In the melody of water I am lost

Still I believe in rainbows

That awaits when the sky clears up

So I wait for the warmth of the sun

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And I wait

And I wait

Longingly

While I get drenched

In my fondness for rain.

The Blind

The blind leading the blind

Where I am blind

An arrogant wench

Who refused to be led

So darkness takes me

And darkness led me.

Expectations

I said there was none when you asked
 I didn't want you to break a promise - if you were to say in it your words.
 So now I smile because you were true
 To me not having expectations
 When there's nothing to expect
 My tears were just sad but not out of disappointment
 You betrayed no expectations
 I just betrayed myself because I expected
 Despite saying I wouldn't.

Suppressed

These feelings I can't express
When you talk
When you breathe
When you move my heart
All within me blooms
Like the flowers I've never come to love
Confidently unleashing their charm
I can't help but smile
I want to pluck you out for my amusement
To express the gratitude I have inside
But I've never cared for flowers
So I'm afraid you will wilt
Oh I am so very afraid
So I will leave you with a kiss.

Refresher Blues

Art Credit:
"Raindrops on Blue Leaves" from Desenio

Raindrops

Melodic strings

Are these my thoughts

Or is my body reacting

To this day it doesn't end

But it gets better

And my body persevere.

Nostalgia

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The sound of crushed dry leaves

A childhood of adventures

A long hike

A packed lunch

How I wish it never ends

Period.

The Findings

How do I know if my thoughts are real?

Art Credit: "Explore Eye" by Miranda Martin

Vacuum Space

You were made for me
You were to fill my loneliness
A huge blackness that grows
And you grew to fill it.

Why did I tell you to go?
I remember my resolve back then
Yet here I am dwindling
But you won't come back to me anymore.

Worth

I love him more than the world
Yet there is nothing I can offer besides love
And in this I feel unworthy
Anxious of when comes a time
someone offers him more than affection
Afraid when he realizes that I have nothing
So I shy myself away
When he took no notice
I felt all my worries are true.

The Creep's Growth

I wanted to tell it to someone
When I'm shivering at night
I wanted someone to hug me tight
In their arms I want to break down

Promises, hope, assurance yet
When I look, they're never there
The ever noticeable absence
Feeds the growth of my fears

So I took no notice
And thread this bravely
Even if I know it is a front
While in some distance, the glass slowly breaks.

Whispers

Moonlit covered bedroom
on a restless night
A black reflection
a poisonous conversation.

Yet to be Us

Art Credit: "Dancing Couple" by Deepali Gosain

If someone were to ask

I would say I like you

I would say it unflinching

Confident, smiling

But I can't say love

Rice and Lemon

First through the scent
Then through the looks
We'll have a little bite
A wonderful blend of perfection

Sniffed you out when you first came
I can imagine that busy cold sweat
Mixture of spices and meats
Or the blend of creamy soup

They say you look like a thumb
But you're like lemon to me
By itself I would have dislike the sourness
Still you were essential and needed

A few short conversation
Led to longer conversations
Since then I couldn't stay away
You have taken me, heart and hair

I wish I wasn't into you
But I couldn't forget you
Beras was the uncooked perfection
You, rice, is the cooked perfection.

Dreaming My Dream

"Arts Cloud Jellyfish" by Certerain

That day, do you remember?

We shared our dreams about the future

Strangely they matched

I think that was when you liked me

Moonless

Source: "Moon Princess", repainted by tissine

I waited
For the father who loved me beyond the skies and the seas
He swore my well being over others
He kept me from harms way
With him I was safe.

Thoughtlessness

Art Credit: "Archer" by ameeeeba

  An arrow
  That's what you are.

Never Was Ocean

Source: "Lost Footsteps" by zindyzone

I know the waves
Constant yet unpredictable
From afar seems peaceful
Near, she's playful.

My life is mine

Guilt robs a person of their happiness

What was my guilt?

Why am I your guilt?

Source: Tumblr

Sorry

My parents taught me to be strong,

Day and night we worked on a stronger me,

Despite it all, this is what I've become.