Suppressed

These feelings I can't express
When you talk
When you breathe
When you move my heart
All within me blooms
Like the flowers I've never come to love
Confidently unleashing their charm
I can't help but smile
I want to pluck you out for my amusement
To express the gratitude I have inside
But I've never cared for flowers
So I'm afraid you will wilt
Oh I am so very afraid
So I will leave you with a kiss.

Worth

I love him more than the world
Yet there is nothing I can offer besides love
And in this I feel unworthy
Anxious of when comes a time
someone offers him more than affection
Afraid when he realizes that I have nothing
So I shy myself away
When he took no notice
I felt all my worries are true.

The Creep's Growth

I wanted to tell it to someone
When I'm shivering at night
I wanted someone to hug me tight
In their arms I want to break down

Promises, hope, assurance yet
When I look, they're never there
The ever noticeable absence
Feeds the growth of my fears

So I took no notice
And thread this bravely
Even if I know it is a front
While in some distance, the glass slowly breaks.

Yet to be Us

Art Credit: "Dancing Couple" by Deepali Gosain

If someone were to ask

I would say I like you

I would say it unflinching

Confident, smiling

But I can't say love

Sorry

My parents taught me to be strong,

Day and night we worked on a stronger me,

Despite it all, this is what I've become.

Acceptance

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